That's what I'm here for and I'm sorry bestie

So the past 2 days I accidently pushing my best friend around.. And somehow I just realized I probably hurt her feeling something that I never want to do to her.. Something that I always trying my best to never do that to her cause she my best friend and she amazing just the way she are.. And because she always there for me..

I try all possible thing to get myself back but I fail miserably as much as her fail to cheer me up.. I realized I kinda changed a little bit in the past 2 days and I miss my old myself.. So after I giving up trying to cheer myself up and after I realized something feels weird in my friendship with my best friend I only got one person in my mind that can help me..

She is my 'big' sister Hanne.. And I know she gonna understand it and I'm right about it.. I want to tell her yesterday but she got work to do so today somehow we online in the same time and I spill it to her about everything.. And her email really help me open up my eyes again.. And that moment I realized I'm such a terrible friend to Akhmar.. I really sorry buddy..

After that I just send her an email with of course I'm saying sorry to her and want everything to go back to normal again cause after spending last week together this week has been so awkward for us and been so different to us.. But well I have to admit so far this is the biggest challenge yet in our friendship.. And thank God we survive it..

Because of I start to worry our friendship will gone is the main reason I ask Hanne for advice.. And clearly after get a lecture from her (even from email) it making me open up my eyes again and she good at zapping me back to reality something that you missing Akhmar.. But well I know you trying your best to comfort me and I know you depressed to seeing me feeling so down..

And all the story Hanne told me is really making me realized everything that I forgot in the past 2 days.. Big sis, I'm not wrong with choosing you to be my big sister.. And the song 'That's What I'm Here For' is really right for me and you.. Yeah definitely for us.. I love you Hanne.. And you too Akhmar.. And I'm happy that I got myself back again.. So that's all.. Adios Amigos..