29 March a tough day for me

29 Mac 2011 merupakan hari yang sukar untuk Atikah.. It's really are.. But I'm glad that I have this two person in my life that always make me feel better.. That person is of course Taylor Swift and my buddy, Akhmar.. I'm so lucky to have them both in my life.. Taylor always help me through her songs and Akhmar well she my personal adviser.. Haha..

So hari selasa hari itu Atikah ada perlawanan persahabatan bola baling that I looking forward for it.. It gonna be my first game with my new handball team.. So sebelum perlawanan bermula Atikah dipilih oleh kesemua pasukan Atikah sebagai kapten pasukan.. It's probably because my speech before the game..

Ianya memang mengharukan Atikah kerana bayangkanlah Atikah baru di sekolah nie selama hampir 4 bulan dan baru training dengan mereka 2 minggu dan masih x beberapa mengenali mereka dan begitu juga mereka, mereka telah pilih Atikah sebagai kapten pasukan.. Something that I really wanted so badly..

Atikah tahu tanggungjawabnya cukup besar but I think I have what it takes to be a captain.. I got a much more experience than my other team mates, I speak out on the field an off the field.. Atikah juga adalah sikit skill untuk mengenal pasti bahaya dan benda-benda macam tulah.. Macam si Fabregas nampak ruang untuk passing dekat team mates dia..

I have all the believes in my teammates.. I really caring about my teammates.. And I think that's all what I need to have to be a captain.. I believe in myself that I can lead me team.. And I also is the kind of person that never ever satisfied with my own performance.. I learn from my mistake and I think I ready for other responsibility.. That is to be a captain and lead my team..

So bila pasukan Atikah kalah teruk walaupun I think I play quite good with the facts that I don't have a lots of my team support, I still disappointed with my performance and what I done.. Probably I just scared that I will lose my captaincy.. It's not that I to greedy but at least give me another chance to show that I can be a good captain..

It's okay if Kak Ira take the captaincy cause I think she deserves it.. Atikah cuma rasa bersalah kerana gagal untuk menjadi kapten yang bagus dan mengetuai pasukan untuk menang.. Deep inside, it still hurting and bothering me.. Akhmar is the only person that I told about everything I feel.. And she well like always, always give me some strength and believe..

Because of she I being more determine and focus.. I determine to make it up for what happen that day.. And I focus on give my best even I probably lose my captaincy.. Cause what most important thing is TEAM!! Team is way more important that our individual mission.. That's is what I believe..

Atikah juga percaya dengan Taylor Swift.. Apa yang dikatakannya dalam lagu, Change memang betul.. Atikah patut mencontohi idola Atikah itu.. Never ever give up even tough you been push around cause when the time is right everything gonna be change.. We not gonna lose again and we all gonna make our school proud!! Wish me luck for tomorrow friendly game!!